Fri. Oct. 12 Clound

I've finally jumped on the Buddhism bandwagon. I have to admit that I'm biased against worship. Well, I'm changed now. I hope anything will gonna be great. Father and mom will be happier. And I can find a good job, a good way to future. I'm not really happiness, and I'm very afraid about anything.

And I'm start to worship. Why wouldn't anyone want to be able to weed out countless misfortune and avoid all that bad luck? I want to get to pick the life exactly what I want, according to substance, steady life, a lovely man and satisfying. What more could a woman like me ask for?

I always feel disturbed , so I had to resort to pray anytime. My sister did have one legitimate concern -- my fortune isn't very good. She said God might forget me. But I rather to think poetically: God just want to give me a present that I'll own greatest life in the future. Thus, Carina! So here I go! Wish me luck.