Wed. Oct. 17 Cloud

I need a job!! I need a job!!
I had revised my resume many times. If I can make myself standout, I'm sure I'll get more hits - and more hits means more chances!
I'd make myself out to be a savvy, clever, sophisticated person. And I'd to make myself stand out by just being my normal, amazing self.
I need to change my life.
Like the book"The Secret" told us: The creative process is a three step process.
Step 1: I must ask for what I want.
I am so happy and grateful now that I have a great job.
I'm a virtuoso. I help people to find the art what they want.
I discover the artist who full of talent but not famous yet.
I'm an top interior designer.
I design and plan the interior, help people own a comfortable and beauty house.
My customers can feel happiness with their family.
I know every kind of materials and lighting to build and decorate the house.
I love my job.
I love to help people to fix up their building.
I love to help boss to find their great office.
I love to help everyone to find their sweet dream home!

Step 2: answer to what I'm asking
Anyone that ever accomplished anything did not know how they were gonna do it, they only knew they were gonna do it.
So, I don't need to know how it's gonna come about.

Step3: receiving step
Do whatever I have to do to generate the feeling of having it now and remember them.

Tues. Oct. 16 Clound

I want to 高雄 by Taiwan high speed rail on lest Sunday. It was a interesting experience. Just need to spend one and half hour, I was at Kouo shoung station.

One of the partner be the guild for me that we work together in hong kong in the 2001. He lives in Koushong. We went to the museum, 高雄夢公園, have a tea time at 西子灣(It really own a pretty view), and 摩天輪. We had a lot fun all day, but when I went to buy the ticket to back to Taipei. All of the tickets sold out, even though the bus. I had no any choice, just cannot but wait at the bus station. When I back home, it's 7:00 at morning... I was so tired and to make things worse, I had to work at 13:00.

But I got a lesson, when we buy the ticket to somewhere, must buy the ticket for back.
I never used to travel by Taiwan high speed rail, but I'm addicted to travel by high speed rail. It's so easy and convenient.

Sat. Oct. 13 Fine

I've finally jumped on the online finding job bandwagon. My classmate don't agree it's a good way to find a good job. But I am still wanting to try. Why wouldn't anyone want to be able to weed out countless pages of bad companies and and avoid all that dishonest companies? You get to pick exactly what you want, according to introduction of background, business and capital. What more could a job hunter ask for?

Here I'm at the starting line, writing my resume on 104. "I'm a smart, kindly ..." No. "I'm so glad you took the time ..." No! "Hey all you bosses out there ..." No! No! NO! Ugh! This sucks! If I make myself out to be too smart or too hard-working, I might sound arrogant. If I don't "sell myself" no one will look me! I've been reading through other resumes on line and they all sound so cliche. How can I make myself standout? And to make things worse, I heard that profiles without pictures get ignored. GEEZ! I hate my figure. I need to lost weight firs. Finding work online is supposed to be a way to avoid the image anxiety of interview. I already feel like I Xanax! "Hi, I'm Carina, now addicted to Xanax ... please give me a chance to work with you, if you don't afraid work with a crazy woman!" Hmmm, that's different. But seriously, selling yourself ain't that easy. I think I'll stick to my Carina line. Always stick to your first instinct!

Fri. Oct. 12 Clound

I've finally jumped on the Buddhism bandwagon. I have to admit that I'm biased against worship. Well, I'm changed now. I hope anything will gonna be great. Father and mom will be happier. And I can find a good job, a good way to future. I'm not really happiness, and I'm very afraid about anything.

And I'm start to worship. Why wouldn't anyone want to be able to weed out countless misfortune and avoid all that bad luck? I want to get to pick the life exactly what I want, according to substance, steady life, a lovely man and satisfying. What more could a woman like me ask for?

I always feel disturbed , so I had to resort to pray anytime. My sister did have one legitimate concern -- my fortune isn't very good. She said God might forget me. But I rather to think poetically: God just want to give me a present that I'll own greatest life in the future. Thus, Carina! So here I go! Wish me luck.

Tues. Oct. 8. Rainy

It was rainy today. I have a date with 厲君 at 12:30. But when I stood in front of 漢堡王 at 12:30, I does not see 厲君 there. He was late.

Influenza is now rampaging, RuRu and Grase both have a bad cold and headache. I hop they will feel better tomorrow.

I have start to prepare my portfolio. I'm interested in a company which about new energy resource. The company just have 10 employees. I need a great job really.

Sat. Oct. 6. Typhoon

The wind which had been blowing since last night brought rain at midnight. A typhoon 科羅莎 is coming. I fancy the rainstorm will continue till tomorrow. Today’s papers reported that the railway lines between Taipei and Keelung have been damaged, and traffic was jammed.

志銘will go to Japan for one year. It is ingenious, tomorrow is his birthday, too. I will miss him very much. Today I gave him a call and wish him happy birthday. He told me “Thanks!” And he’ll back Taiwan on December, we can meet that time. His voice from telephone transmitter sounds unnatural, and had a little strange. I thought he is sad and to be afraid. It let me thought a about 5 years ago. I worked in Hong Kong. It was along…

But I think it’s no so bad, because we have MSN, right? No matter where we are, we still connect together.

Fri. Oct. 5. Rainy

Got up at twelve. After reviewing my PMP lessons for three hours, ate my lunch at PM. 3.

I talked with some friends at msn in the afternoon.

My dinner ate with Helen and Leah, they’re such great sisters! We talked about the things that happened in Conary.

Wed. Oct. 3. Fine, later rainy

It was a beautiful morning. 元譆and I went to read in Starbuck. The sun was shining brightly in the sky. We enjoyed the sun and the beauty sky immensely.

The green maples along the road had turned red. The leaves of some of the tree were dropping from their branches.

When we were arrived the Starbuck coffee, it suddenly began to rain hard. After half hour we see the rainbow.

We have salad, potato, cheese bread and a cup of coffee. I liked it very much, and we had a lot fun whole day.

Tues. Oct. 2. Fine

In the morning, I read an article that about the reason why we honor Confucius.

Confucius is one of the great men of the world. The first reason why we honor him is his enthusiasm and persistence in saving the sinful world. We know that during Confucius’ time almost everything went wrong and society was so wicked and demoralized that kings were killed by ministers, and father were put to death by their sons. Confucius, being a wise and virtuous man, thought that it was his duty to save the world. He could have been a high official or a very rich man if he had sought to become one. But the spirit of sacrifice was predominant in him. He came to serve others, not to be served by others.

The second reason is that he helped to preserve our ancient civilization. During his life almost every part of China was disturbed and there was war everywhere. Literature and the doctrines of the ancient sages would have been totally destroyed if Confucius had not preserved them. He collected many classical works and arranged them in order, and compiled some valuable books, which are widely read by Chinese scholars and which are now even introduced to the western world.

The third and the last reason is that Confucius imparted to us many lofty ideals, which we can put into practice in our daily life at the present time. They can help us to build up a strong and perfect character.

Mon. Oct. 1. Fine

Now autumn reigns over the world. It is the season of decay and solitude. The day became shorter and night longer. It will be cold outside that we cannot have out-of door amusements any more.

The leaves turn beautiful color in red, yellow and brown.

Because the beautiful, and cool days, many people think this is the best time of year.

2007.9.30

Today was the firs day I started to my diary.

A wise man say: Where there is a will there is a way. In Chinese it means “有志者事竟成” There is nothing hard in this world, only people lack a strong mind.

A thing, no matter how difficult it is, can be accomplished, provide that one makes up his mind to do it. Many a great hero performs meritorious service to his country and is deservedly respected by his countrymen, simply because he possesses an iron will and steady effort.

We know that Rome was not built in a day. Before she was built, her founders had suffered a great deal from severe and almost unendurable distress, but they never lost heart.

A person of great reputation as Columbus, who discovered America, owed his success to his singleness of purpose and perseverance.

For, on the ocean, hundreds of times he suffered the affliction of storms and tempests. However, instead of admitting defeat, he went forward.

I’ll write the diary, and went forward.